Country Songs

Have you heard them or took the time to hear one. A good one. People may laugh and tease about it, but have you heard their hearts poured out in them. They aren't trashy, they don't degrade people. They talk about love, life, anything.


Trust me on this, you don't know country music til you have it given to you. When someone picks songs for you because they remind them of you, it's priceless. It's like they were singing it to you. It's like they were speakless but found the words in the song.



Music is the essence of you. It's what makes you move, think, be.

Own Choices

There are many things that get you thinking. Friends getting significant others, someone getting hurt, or a death. The worst is death. I makes you wonder if you've done enough or if there's anything you should fix. It's a time where you analyze your life and hope that you're isn't as crappy as you think it is.

Many people wonder why people do things that are out of the "norm". I honestly can't tell you why. There's shrinks out there that will tell you shyt out of your ass is the problem but no one trully knows the problem. Only the beholder does.

Why then do we question the choices people make. Isn't it their choice. Of course some could be wrong and out right ridiculous but you must honor their choice to an extent. Not everyone will agree with what it is.....................................


-many weeks later-

I think it should go out like this. Dropped at the end for you to finish. After all, it is ultimately your opinion.

Words that can't describe

Some people say it's crazy, others say it's love. I can't tell you which it is or why it is, but I can tell you that when you're feeling something and it's right, to take it. There's this saying by Dr. Seuss I believe that says,"You know you're in love when your reality is finally better than your dreams." I have to say, that at this point they're are right. Ya there will be downs, but hell there will be ups. They'll be so high that the downs don't look like anything at all. I know that my gut feeling doesn't lie to me and that the smile on my face doesn't get any bigger than this, unless I'm missing something. I know to keep things when they're good and right, so I'm keeping him. I'll keep him through the fights and the long nights that won't end. The working hours and the times where my parents won't bend, but that's OK. He puts a smile on my face. Shows me the world with a smile and a bit of patience. He listens to everything I say and thinks only the best. He keeps me safe and I've never been so comfortable with myself than with him. I know it's only been a short while, but like I always say,"We have the rest of forever." It's only the beginning, we have so much more. There's reunions, parents meeting, friends getting acquainted, and pets to get along with. We have more times where we giggle all night or when we go through our mhms. He's got me hooked to his music and nothing seems right anymore without him there. There are times when, I swear, I feel him right there. I think we bring out the best of each other and that's great. No one has understood me more than him and let me tell you, I'm confusing. I sing in front of him, which I don't ever do. I've been inspired again and I love it. It's like being back in your own skin again. He takes me for me and I love that. You know it's crazy when your so happy your crying. I seem to do that a lot lately. Ya I just graduated, Ya my birthday just past, but this is the pinicle. Yup the top, the cream of the crop. There's so many songs we have that we can't pick one. I think we should just make albums and those would be ours. I'm so excited, I'm giddy, I can't say I'm scarred because I'm not. I trust him with everything I got and I don't know if that's a lot, but I don't think he minds. I believe we are both falling and falling fast. I don't know who will catch who, but falling isn't bad if he's there with me. I can look down at my hands and know that where the spaces are, that's were he should be. There's so much to say, but so little space. No expression or mix of words could describe what I feel. I think the best quote I can come up with is someone dear to me. She said,"When I look at you both, I see me and my man when we started." Let me tell you about her, they're still in love and I believe it's been over a year.

So like I always do I'll leave you with a tid bit of me, although this is a lot. Remember to love like if it's you you're loving. Trust your gut and keep your friends close, if they don't like him; he ain't worth it.

Tuttles

A mix I couldn't resist

What's vicious is having your heart torn by old and new. Having the chance to start what you couldn't and starting something unexpected. It's an odd feeling being in this situation because you know what you have to do, but you don't want to because you'll feel sooo horrible about it and this feeling kills both relationships instead of just one. It's a stickling thing. It's so fustrating. It's the alphabet mixed up. One guy makes you feel like a woman and the other takes you on an adventure that you'd never expect. One has practically everything in commmon with you. The other is your polar opposite that seems to get you to connect. Both take effort, but one is more enjoyable. It's easier and lighter. There isn't curves, twists, and turns that are unbelievable. They are both indescribeable, but both are different. One gives me the peace and hope that I need to trive. Inspires, comforts, simple pleasures. The other brings out the deep within, the good and the bad. Treats as an equal, but special.

So much confusion, but it's all clear. I know how the others feel, so I know which way. It becomes clear that I've found a brother and a mate.